My classroom management was all over the place, I wasn't teaching in the way I normally would, my mind went blank, I had a permanent sense of my own shortcomings, things went off topic and I panicked, I was convinced learning was not taking place...

Yep. It was my first observation. Of course, none of the 7407 observations are assessed. Except that this one was combined with the college observation, which IS graded. Knowing that you're being marked for something changes the way you do things. The first 7407 obs is meant to just find out what your teaching style is etc etc. Except it wasn't just doing that, which really didn't help.

Add to this that everyone wants a piece of me at the moment because I won't be here from next week, and the result is a stress, stress, stress. It's all the administration that Must Be Done before I go that's getting to me. And everyone who asks me to do something seems to think they are the only person who has asked me to do anything.

But to go back to the professional development- since knowing you are being assessed changes the way you work, I think I must make more of 'this is being marked' or 'there is a reward for the best one'.

I'll save further reflection on the lesson itself for the Reflective Practice form I have to fill out. Oh good. More admin.